Everything Never Wanted

Everything Never Wanted

 

Everything I never wanted

You were to me

 

Someone to:

Lie to my face

Cheat behind my back

Steal from my soul

 

Someone to rip out my heart

Scatter its pieces

 

Laugh

 

As I try to put it back together

 

Laugh

 

As I try to put it back in

 

Everything I never wanted

You were to me

 

Joy was the reaction to knowing

You

Were the cause of my tears

 

3 o’clock  in the morning  the cold wakes me

I feel you smile

 

Knowing

the confused look on my face

 

Wondering

why I don’t feel you near

 

What did I do to you?

What was wrong with my love?

 

Was it everything you never wanted.

 

©Christopher F. Brown 2011

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Distant Kisses

I look away.

 

The music in your ears enchants me.

 

I dare not glance into your pretty chestnut eyes.

You might see what I really want to say.

 

I can not look upon your luscious full lips.

Technically you are a stranger.

 

Even though there would be no rejection if I kissed you

I may never stop if I did.

 

No

 

I can not look at you.

 

I might fall in love

 

That is something I don't want to do

 

Again.



©Christopher F. Brown 2010

 

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Thrown out the window

I’ve spent many years learning the rules
only for you to come along and confuse them.

 
Experience has shown me
the words you say
the things you do
all point to one
but somehow
you add up and factor out as two.

I differ to the rules,
remember what I learned in doing but still
there is no mention
no chapter
not even a footnote on you.

Maybe I just live in a world set by rules only I live by.

It could be that you have poked a hole in my box
and my thoughts are escaping.

Whatever it is

I don’t understand this thing.

I don’t understand you.

©Christopher F. Brown 2009

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