Friday, May 22, 2015

I'm not trying to fuck I'm trying to see you in 3D

 

 

Is it really this hard

to find people I can go back and forth in discussion with

about Buddhist and Hindu theology compared and contrasted against Christian and Yoruba

 

I want to scream and shout and dance with somebody over Janet Jackson's new album

and at the same time

feel the heat and talk with somebody about how extremely sad and depressing

but oh so good Giovanni's Room was

 

I want to be able to speak with somebody whom can quote Malcolm X and Kafka in the same breath

 

Somebody who could see the logic of Pac and Immortal Technique on the same piece

with the Budos Band or Mulatu on the back track

 

I want to know people whom know

just exactly who

Suki Lee and Bayard Rustin are

 

can we talk about Jacob Kinohoor's ass

at least for a moment

then get into some B.B. King or Johnny Cash

 

have you seen Dune

the one from the eighties

James McAvoy shirtless

as well as John Goodmans acting

were only good things about the other

if you read it

even better

 

what about the spook that sat by the door

Or

killer clowns from outer space

 

let's be shady and point out all the inaccuracies on the history and discovery and channels

praying for that day

that's not in February

They show Shaka Zulu in full

without commercial interruption

 

Or maybe a documentary about native American people

with actual native actors

that do not depict them all as either

plains people

Or Inuit

Cause you already know

not everybody is Eskimo

 

then let's put on our own private production of legally blonde

followed by encore presentations of the classic scene

Of Miss Celie and miss Ofelia going in over Harpo

 

can I discuss with you

how the Patriot act nullifies everything in constitution

And the bill of rights

even though they never were intended to be permanent any way

 

It would be nice to not have to explain a Corporatocracy

 

all my life Ive been into Egyptology

You do know that Imhotep was the actual founder of medicine

by a good 2000 years

not that Hippocrat

 

the thing is

I'm still learning

 

when attempting to delve that deeply into people

which I don't even consider that deep

They often misunderstand

They often concluded without thinking

 

maybe

just maybe

 

©Christopher F. Brown 2015

 

 

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

The Oxymoron of Being

 

 

 

Look at these people

With their perfect bodies

their perfect families

their perfect houses and cars

and their other perfect things

 

If I say this directly to anyone

or even aloud

the knee jerk conditioned response is to say

I

me

they

suffer from jealousy

 

Why do people wait four or five decades before they accept

life is not perfect

there is no perfect thing

no perfect someone

no perfect anything

 

you accept what you will

refuse what you wont

put purpose to plan

its all what you decide to make of it

 

They say that is settling

it could be

Id disagree with their understanding of the word

 

forcing something to be a certain way

a certain way that only existed in one’s uncertain mind

how is that anywhere near

perfect

how is that anything less than

delusional

 

I could force myself to be completely

other than I am

 

be what I believe I should be

have what I believe I should have

do what I believe I should do

but is any of that

 

perfect

 

is any of that

me

 

where is the reality in that

 

reality never had anything to do with the notion

the idea

the thing

called perfect

 

They said

weren’t you the one that said

pursue your passion

 

weren’t you the one that said

the only difference between a dream and a goal

are the details that occupy the reality in between

 

Sometimes

I hate talking to me

 

© Christopher F. Brown 2015

 

 

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Because You’re Supposed To

 

 

 

You think because your skin is wrinkle and blemish free

you have achieved a great feat of life

 

being thirty

or forty

or fifty-three

looking 23 omg

 

The last book you read

was only done so that you can name

the last book you read

 

Your soul is as paper thin

as is your skin

 

hold on

yes

your shell, vehicle, vessel

and its drapings, anointings, adornings

are very beautiful

 

you do know that

none of that at all

is actually you

 

your body fat percentage and credit score

is as important to you

as the birth of your children

as the day of your first wedding

as the day of your second divorce

 

hold on

yes I'm calling you shallow

 

hold on

no I'm not saying that I'm better

 

I will say at least

what I do

I do because it has a purpose

I do because it has a meaning

 

I know that lives are more important than taxes and their brackets

I know that you do not stay

just because of what others might say if you go

 

What you do is because. . .

What you believe is because. . .

Right down to the very words you choose

 

why do you do anything that you do

 

that’s right

go ahead and say it

 

© Christopher F. Brown 2015

Saturday, May 9, 2015

For Dana

 

 

Woman

Sister

Mother

 

No matter the title or label

None fully define that which is

You

 

That which is

Dana

 

Studying your hands I’ve learned

all things are possible

even though you make them seem effortless

 

Studying your soul I’ve learned

true strength is limitless and unmatched

 

Studying your arms I’ve learned

true love is unconditional

 

Thank you Dana

for being the first woman in my life

 

Thank you Bennie

for being the first sister in my life

 

Thank you Ma

for being my one and only

Mother

 

©Christopher F. Brown 2015

 

 

Friday, May 8, 2015

Future Idols

 

when the war is over

what then

 

there is no road that leads back to

before

 

we pin all of our hopes and fears

on this

future

that has yet to be determined

But has already been paid for completely

 

in blood

in tears

in regret and sorrow

 

when the war is over

what then

 

only a few manage to escape the past

until we war again

 

©Christopher F. Brown 2015

A Writer, Maybe

 

what is it about writers

we put words to emotions

to experience

to life

 

life others are afraid to acknowledge

maybe

 

experience others may have had

Or have not had

maybe

 

emotions others have equally laid with

possibly more

maybe

 

words are vehicles

 

writers speak not of the contraption that brings about motion

a writer speaks of the navigator that discerns direction

 

©Christopher F. Brown 2015

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

A list of 200 words that can be used instead of, “Black” or ,“Dark” to convey a negative meaning.


I made this list because as much as I enjoy reading and writing I understand the power of words. Words have psychological weight which is why our favorite poems, stories, books and what-have-you means so much to us because it reaches down into our inner most emotional crevasses and, through the psychological processes of association, creates unspoken meanings. Keeping with this theme is saddens me that in 2015 it is still common in western society and culture to use the words, “Black” and “Dark” to convey negatives and, “White” and “light” to convey positives. It is not the 18th or 19th or even the 20th centuries anymore and as time and understanding has grown, so should our mindful use of vocabulary so here is a list of 200 words that are not, “Dark” or “Black” that can be used convey a negative meaning. enjoy. btw this list only took about three minuets to make so if you are looking for a word that is not on here its easy as opening up a thesaurus to do the same.
•    bleak
•    depressing
•    cheerless
•    comfortless
•    discouraging
•    disheartening
•    dismal
•    drear
•    dreary
•    funereal
•    gloomy
•    grim
•    hard
•    harsh
•    hopeless
•    joyless
•    lonely
•    melancholy
•    mournful
•    oppressive
•    sad
•    somber
•    unpromising
•    cheerless
•    austere
•    bleak
•    blue
•    comfortless
•    dejected
•    dejecting
•    depressed
•    desolate
•    despondent
•    disconsolate
•    dismal
•    dispiriting
•    dolorous
•    drab
•    draggy
•    drearisome
•    dreary
•    dull
•    forlorn
•    funereal
•    gloomy
•    grim
•    in the dumps
•    jarring
•    joyless
•    melancholy
•    miserable
•    mopey
•    mournful
•    oppressive
•    sad
•    somber
•    sorrowful
•    sullen
•    tenebrific
•    uncomfortable
•    wintry
•    woebegone
•    woeful
•    aphotic
•    atramentous
•    caliginous
•    cimmerian
•    clouded
•    cloudy
•    crepuscular
•    dim
•    dingy
•    drab
•    dull
•    dun
•    dusk
•    dusky
•    faint
•    foggy
•    gloomy
•    grimy
•    indistinct
•    inky
•    lurid
•    misty
•    murky
•    nebulous
•    obfuscous
•    obscure
•    opaque
•    overcast
•    pitchy
•    rayless
•    shaded
•    shadowy
•    shady
•    somber
•    sooty
•    stygian
•    sunless
•    tenebrous
•    unlighted
•    unlit
•    vague
•    eclipse
•    gloom
•    lightlessness
•    murk
•    murkiness
•    nightfall
•    obscurity
•    shade
•    shadiness
•    shadows
•    smokiness
•    tenebrosity
•    twilight
•    restfallen
•    dampened
•    dashed
•    despondent
•    disconsolate
•    discouraged
•    disheartened
•    dismal
•    dispirited
•    doleful
•    down
•    down in the dumps
•    down in the mouth
•    downcast
•    downhearted
•    dragged
•    drooping
•    droopy
•    gloomy
•    glum
•    heavyhearted
•    hurting
•    in the pits
•    low
•    low-spirited
•    melancholy
•    miserable
•    moody
•    mopey
•    mopish
•    morose
•    sad
•    sagging
•    shot down
•    spiritless
•    woebegone
•    wretched
•    restfallen
•    dampened
•    dashed
•    despondent
•    disconsolate
•    discouraged
•    disheartened
•    dismal
•    dispirited
•    doleful
•    down
•    down in the dumps
•    down in the mouth
•    downcast
•    downhearted
•    dragged
•    drooping
•    droopy
•    gloomy
•    glum
•    heavyhearted
•    hurting
•    in the pits
•    low
•    low-spirited
•    melancholy
•    miserable
•    moody
•    mopey
•    mopish
•    morose
•    sad
•    sagging
•    shot down

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Denial

How could you look at a plant and call it equal

If you can't even look at the animal and do so


How could you look at a animal And call it equal

If you can't even look like at the female and do so


How could you look at the female and call her equal

If you can't even look at one other than one And do so


desperately seeking other

can not handle same


Truth has always been

So lies became


How could you expect me

You don't even respect you


we are not

we should not

be visually same


the internal is already so

the truth is already so


I can not extend in full to him

What he does not

What he will not

comprehend


He denies self

even to self


What is a seed of love worth to those whom work hate


How can they see me

as anything but other

when they are totally blind

to self

to same


©Christopher F. Brown 2015


 

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