Suicide Letter of an Empath

Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it all.

Standing firm when the grass looks like it would be so comfortable.

Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it all.

If they knew that I felt their anxiety the same
Felt their pain the same
See their unease as clearly as I see my own.

Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it all

Would you fain uncertainty and force your smile if you knew I knew?

The raven flies high in one world
even though those closest to him in another try to clip his wings.

The man in the boat
In the middle of the flood
Sticks his hand out to save the drowning strangers.
Instead of getting in the boat they all pull him out to drown with them

Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it all

If you truly knew
I feel as you feel
As if it was and the same as my own.

If you knew my heart aches as yours
My anger rises as yours
My delight is ecstatic as yours

My soul cries with yours
as your shining, happy, lying face spins its tale.

Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it all

When I know how deeply
How truthfully
How intensely
They will never understand

Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth it all.

©Christopher F. Brown 2010